1-uppers

Have you ever had that feeling that someone 1-upped you on purpose?! Today I had that feeling. People who do this are always so sneaky! It's like they purposely say something to verify that they are not "quite" on your level (or whatever level they perceive you to be). It's so crazy, sometimes it feels like a drive-by. You know... your are talking and getting along great and then it slips out from the other persons lips and if you weren't really listening you would just have let it pass with no thought, but because you are listening you catch it. Then you start pondering , "did that person just say that?" and then feelings on inadequacy start to rise. I absolutely hat that! I hate comparison, and I hate it when I start to question if I am good enough or if someone else thinks lesser of me. Maybe I just live in my own little world where comments pointing out someone's short-comings is a bad mistake. I'm not saying that I think myself anywhere close to perfect but when someone takes pride in comparing themselves to you it definitely hurts even if they don't realize the full consequences of such talk.

Well, the past few days I've been energized at the prospects of looking for a job. I hate the interviewing process and despise the whole aspect of getting a job. But for some odd reason I actually got excited about it this week. I am at peace with not having a job right now and had started to not beat myself up about finding the perfect job. (I do that sometimes.) And then today I felt like suddenly someone's ill-though blurbs not only took the excitement away but made me beat myself up in other areas... some even old areas. For 10 minutes I started to scrutinize how I was measuring up. The 1-ups got me into comparison, and I passionately hate comparison because once you start comparing suddenly what was good and worked is now not quite enough. But, then after the 10 minutes of shocking and comparative thoughts, I realized that I had officially been 1-upped and that this person who 1-upped me must not be happy with themselves because why else would they desire to elevate themselves?

And then I began feeling good again because of the realization that I am perfectly adequate the way I am and whatever level that may be. God knows I am not perfect but He loves me just the same and I need not be in bond to comparison (not even for 10 minutes!) but rather in bond to love.

The Rest of the Updates :)

Here is some more fun stuff.... James finally got to walk for his graduation, my friends Lauren and Jon got married in OH, my parents came to visit, the Kankas had a second wedding reception for us in Virginia, our friends Lauren and John got married in PA, and then we went home for a family vacation in northern MI!!! Whew what a fun spring/summer!

Long Time No Hear?

Yes it has been a VERY long time since I've been using the blog but since it's way to long to write everything I'm going to put up a montage of pictures to fill you all in on some of the details......



We were married at the MSU Alumni Chapel on
April 22, 2006

It was a beautiful day and we had so many family and friends there to help us celebrate!

Our honeymoon was spent in Virginia Beach VA


More to follow......

New Profile Picture :)

Here is a picture of me from our honeymoon and I thought I needed a new picture for my profile :)